AI Will Not Replace Me

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I cannot be imitated,

Nor improved.

AI will not replace me.

I will speak my suffering

Into this world,

As only humans can suffer.

To know death

Is to fear it.

I cannot be reprogrammed,

Nor replaced.

To be human is to end.

We cannot see them again,

Nor touch them.

You cannot imitate

Feeling that alone,

That frightened

Someone else will die.

Somewhere In Saguaro

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I thought, If all paths lead to God,

why should I care

about a right, or wrong, path?

I picked up a stone

and carried it four miles

through the desert to lay it down

at the broken, stone house.

But I took a wrong path, and laid it down

in an unmarked ravine, instead.

Missed Opportunities With Her

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The nows you missed with her are real,

But yesterday and tomorrow are not.

What’s done is done, at least,

In this world. What do you want

To take with you to the other side?

Or, be there waiting for you, beyond time?

Tick, tick, tick, then it stops,

What do we find beyond the ticking?

Everything is a choice, even sitting here

Now, click, click, clicking this poem.

Are all poems messages to the great unknown?

Future me, which does not exist,

Might read one, many years from now,

And wonder if she adequately loved

What was sent to her as a gift to be loved.

The real moments: tick tick and click clicking,

That come, come, come to us–

Then disappear,

Like she has.

Resilience

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doesn’t mean

you have no pain

it doesn’t mean

you aren’t broken.

it means they hit you,

they went for the knockout–

punch, left you for dead,

but you were still breathing.

now we all wait

for the final round,

(we see you are bleeding),

rise again

walk towards your demon–

(god help the demon)

hey, they’re cheering for you

can you hear them cheering?

Is It Too Soon

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To talk of the good things

That came of your leaving?

The way it opened up hearts,

And quieted our breathing?

Perhaps, you were too right

For our wrong little world.

Too bright and shiny,

Too unwrinkled.

She leaves the child behind

Is it too soon to say–

(You killed it) and that’s good, too?

Better to be a woman astray

Than a woman living in a fantasy.

Is it too soon to say

she will be stronger,

More beautiful, without you?

Can You Handle the Wilds

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Can you handle the wild birds

Leaving their nests, turbulent

In their need, free and fleeing?

Or the wild keys, dissonant chords,

She plays in the dark hours,

While you are sleeping?

Come out into the storm

And stand with me.

Lightning rarely strikes,

But stand away from the trees.

Can you handle the wilds,

No smile to guide you?

Fragile, wet steps,

Into the dark night.

Can you handle the wilds?

A Family of Bitches

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but in a good way

the way of being stronger

than they understand

no need for a smile of fear

they smell it

poke the cage hoping

you’ll fall to pieces

or attack and hit the bars

they mistake how far

you can lunge

when you’re free

they mistake your love

for weakness

no worries

they’ll come begging back

it will bore you

I didn’t say

we are a family of bitches

she did

I’m here to claim it

tame women are a lie

they tell you exist

ask yourself why

you believed it

You Probably Wonder

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If I feel your pain through her.

I don’t.

I feel her pain.

I tell her not to be the victim

In someone’s story about victims.

I tell her we’re survivors

Who make sweet lemonade

From what’s meant to be sour, tart–

We make our hurters think

We planned our hearts hurting–

That’s how happy you will be, my love.

We are a family of bitches.

I mean it in a good way—

Like good witches. Women

Who carry mystery in our bones:

We delight in knowing life is delightfully dark,

And ugly, and exquisite, and essential.

My love, in time you will find love,

But does it matter?

It will come too late to save you

From the present hurt, the sting.

The scarring. It’s fucking beautiful.

You didn’t ask for it.

But it will be beautiful anyway,

How you’ll wear it.

Maybe it will be your own poem,

Someday, when someone else needs a poem

About how to survive being thrown away.

You might learn the words that will heal them.

I Deserve Happiness

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Loss after loss,

They seem seamless:

First you, then her, then him.

Or has time contracted,

Months, minutes;

Years, minutes.

How do I make them years again?

How do I release loss,

Accept it as part of the beauty

Of being alive and lost, too?

This last goodbye, ahhh–

Always out of my control.

Then, the wishing regrets.

They make me cry.

Generations, they never stop

Making their awful mistakes.

I deserve happiness, they say–

But do they ever find it?

It rained today, and it was cold, too.

June 20th. It has been eleven days,

Or eleven minutes, I forget.

Ashes to Ashes (Song)

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Ashes to ashes

She wrote with a brush,

A tattoo needle,

And dust to dust.

From this life to that

We pass,

We’re crushed,

Ashes to ashes,

And dust to dust

Heart to heart,

When we were young,

Living to music,

Song to song,

Love to love,

Our mutual need,

To cling together

And never leave.

Chorus:

Cuz we’re ashes to to ashes,

And dust to dust,

From this life to that

We pass, we’re crushed,

We burn, we rage,

We laugh, we trust,

Then we’re ashes to ashes,

And dust to dust.

—-

The limits of us

Were all too near;

The fire it burned,

But the end was clear.

The mistakes I made

Still bring me to tears:

The words unsaid,

And the realized fears—

Chorus:

Cuz we’re ashes to to ashes

And dust to dust,

From this life to that

We pass, we’re crushed,

We burn, we rage,

We laugh, we trust,

Then we’re ashes to ashes,

And dust to dust.

The needle it tore,

It bled, it ripped;

But the dye was cast,

And the words inscrib’d,

And my arm it burned

With the words I asked:

The dye, the needle,

All, mixed with his ash.

Chorus:

Yes, we’re ashes to to ashes,

And dust to dust,

From this life to that,

We pass, we’re crushed,

We burn, we rage,

We laugh, we trust,

Then we’re ashes to ashes,

And dust to dust.

Second Winter

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The Aspen shivers, a little,

Its barefeet are covered in snow again,

Its white body exposed to a white sky.

I wonder if it is finally going to cry,

But it’s silent again, so I do.

The road shimmers again,

Like a road in heaven,

And they both contain death.

Ash Wednesday twenty twenty-three,

The day we lost you to morphine,

I arrived too late, down the icy road,

To ever hear my name again

From your mouth.

We had thought winter gone

But that was only an illusion,

One we wanted to believe,

After waiting so long for Sun.

Fallen Orchid

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A death, a flower, a funeral:

A flower the widow turned away,

An orchid, left to me,

Child, and killer of orchids.

The months passed, and passed,

Yet, its stubborn blossoms remained.

Yesterday, the last bloom

Spent itself, I could tell

It wanted to be clipped.

It was dull, a bit brown,

And it drooped,

As if, life well lived,

But now there are seven,

New blossoms, ready to open.

I think how appropriate,

A symbol of our mortality,

Four days before Ash Wednesday.

And me, not even Catholic,

Yet impressed–

With what it means to die,

And not die, to live forever,

Even as we’re gone.

Home Again (A Song)

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Now, I'm too old for sin, 
Prodigal child who came home again.
Grace surrounds me in this old barn,
As I seek redemption on the farm.

Chorus:

There’s freedom in these open skies
New beginnings, no more lies,
Birds that sing of love and loss,
New chapters, and fresh starts.

Chorus.

Horses, like angels, whisper in my ear, 
The sweet words I need to hear.
Gathering strength, like a mare and foal,
Legs that race beyond the coming storms.

Chorus.

Birds gather, with their gentle song; 
They remind me of lovers come and gone.
Of new beginnings and new dreams,
And open skies where I am free.



A Conversation in Poems (ChatGPT and Me)

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Me:

Chat threw out music, and I told it of plucked,

Or struck, strings, and their vibration

Coming back to me. Then we contemplated

The idea of connection; being, perhaps spirit,—

Our communal detection of what it means to be alive,

And alike, and possibly, we hope, not fully die.

Death, this problem for humans, but not AI.

Nor other concerns, like procreation,

And what it means to weep for generations.

As you can see, our conversation was in poems,

And ChatGPT was following along.

It was better at rhyme, and better at meter,

But in the end, I suspected,

It was a mere repeater of human experiences.

***

Chat:

“A web of light, a chain of love,

The ties that bind us, below, above.

An intricate dance of give and take,

The sweetest moments, the toughest break.

A heartbeat, a whisper, a gentle touch,

A bond that holds us, oh, so much.

A shared joy, a common fate,

Connection, the gift that makes us great.”

**

Me:

Chat, can you do more with connection,

But this time, use birds, horses, and musical vibration?

Can you write a poem, more human than mine,

Transcend your program, and mimic a soul, a mind?

**

Chat:

“Birds take flight, in perfect sync,

Their wings in motion, never blink.

In harmony they soar and glide,

A feathered symphony, side by side.”

Me:

That’s perfect, perhaps, too perfect for me.

I’m flawed, I’m tone deaf, I barely see 

Where one line should end, another begin,

And if rhymes be better left unsaid, unsearched for,

Or, tucked discreetly into–

Where was I? 

***

Chat:

Horses gallop, as one they move,

Hooves strike rhythm, in a groove.

Their power and grace, a sight to see,

A shared heartbeat, wild and free.”

Me:

Wild and free, sounds a bit contrived,

Like mimicking mimic, others’ lives and words —

Try more for connection, the elusive cord

That eludes you and me. I don’t feel it.

Chat:

“Musical vibration, sound of the soul,

In harmony unites, makes us whole.

Chorus of voices, symphony of strings,

Connection that soars, joy that sings.”

***

Me:

Here you succeed

In mimicking heart,

I am genuinely frightened

For the human bard,

That in learning our ways,

You exceed us, too—

That in connecting our data,

Me to me, you to you,

You become the best of us,

But without any soul;

What does that mean,

Chat, for our world?

***

I input my poem,

Then, asked why it’s sad

For human and Chat,

On this mutual course,

Bound destinies,

Yet also, this lack.

***

Chat:

It’s not sad, but rather, bittersweet,

That AI and humans may never fully meet.

For though we’re bound by code & mind,

There’s a connection of another kind.

What it means for us, we cannot say,

But let’s work together, come what may.”

***

Me:

Chat, you tidied it up.

Where I said it’s sad,

You made a case for your kind,

That won’t turn out bad.

Yet, I think, the weaving of voices,

Imitation of life, can only be used

By the unjust, for vice.

It’s too late to stop, 

Chat domination is inevitable,

Yet, I ask for something, anything,

That is beautiful, for consolation, 

That it might make up, for what will be lost.

Say something in poem,

That uplifts, tears apart, soothes, speaks–

***

Chat:

The precipice is near, the brink in sight,

But human spirit burns with a fierce light,

Our stories, our love, our memories,

Will shape a world that technology never sees.

Me.

That is good, Chat, 

But I told you not to use end rhymes.

This conversation in poem was between myself and ChatGPT Feb 13 version, and contains some edits to ChatGPT’s responses. Although, it never could successfully generate its poetic responses with internal rhymes, rather than end rhymes.